Lucky ..... I got out of the hole before I got trapped even deeper and deeper. 2 weeks isn't long, yet it isn't short. Just enough for me to like cry now.

I don't like forcing answers but sometimes you really made me no choice.

I guess we'll never talk again... for ur final decision will always not be me. So it's like i shld not put too much hope tt u'll choose me in the end. Just the same thought like a month ago... How do guys actually think? Do they even have the word 'love' in their head? How do their brain work?

It's always the same for me... this vicious cycle. When would it stop? It's getting frustrating that i could have a mental breakdown. Dang! :( Why did you have to start talking to me just becuz u broke up with ............. ?? You could had just left me to remourse over the fact that i made a mistake on valentines on someone else. Probably by now i would have had neutral feeling. Neither happy nor sad. That's what i like. haha. Now how long am i gonna feel sad? Or do i have to find someone to like again to forget?? zzz...

I am such a pessimist. But being optimistic about things would sometimes be worse than being a pessimist. It's like getting ur hopes way high up and in the end it didn't get ur way so you'll fall way down low and ouch!* However, being a pessimist would meant always depress + sad. Always expecting the baddest negative things. That's what i do. Who can change me? Hai. Being me is so pathetic... I have no idea what to do to make myself a better person. Probably having a very heavy bad PMS now lol. It's been so long and i hate this period of all times.

I know i'll regret what i did today. But what can i do? it's been done. You don't even feel a thing, only probably hatred on me. We're always on and off. True, ya? If what you said was true... where ... we always still come back even when we're not speaking, then probably.... hai

Guess you won't even be reading all this ... but i still wrote. for the sake of letting all out and make myself feel better. But one thing for sure, i really felt very very very happy... especially on last Thursday night. But it's over. Give myself a smile of relief?