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Wednesday, April 29, 2009

10:50:00 PM

Daily blogging can be a real challenge. (:

Been returning home straight after work these days... Feels wonderfully nice to just lay flat on the bed, and relishing on the fact that there's simply nothing at all to do, nothing at all to attend to. Relaxed. Lazing around. Lying down. Facial. Lights out. Thinking. (: It's been a darn long while. Hectic has spelt my life for the last 2 months.

But it'll all end soon, come end May. So gonna look forward to these days. More time for everything. COME QUICK COME QUICK! 21 working days to go! Countdown.

I went for a haircut! Short fringe now!!

&the beauty.

10:19:00 PM

THE WEATHER is going crazy. Global sauna. But yesterday's evening sun was a perfect fit for a ride along East Coast Park. And the company was great; summing up to a very pleasurable evening (:

Pretty sight!

Sometimes, I wish that time would pass slower whenever you want it too.

4-Div Meeting this afternoon. The topic was on depression. The atmosphere was pretty light at first as we touched on the symptoms, likely causes... etc... until this member spoke up, and on a very solemn note she talks about how we all shouldn't speak as if depression was of light matter because she herself experienced depression and she knows the severity of it. She talked about how she has suffered for 4 years and is still suffering from depression; how she has attempted suicides for 9 times, and the 9th being last Sunday. Imagine the awkward silence in the room. It was suppose to be a cheery, light-hearted meeting but I could feel the tension. Hmm. Got me thinking sometimes I do tend to take things lightly. Have to keep in mind that some serious matters ought to be thought of seriously, and to be considered thoroughly.

Alright gotta snap out of this!

Rose-making lessons for Kat at Marina Square after that! She wanted to make for her mom for mother's day. Called Eden to come along too. But I guess the main main main agenda was to find nms. So she finally saw him after.......... hmmm 1 month over? Wonder how she feels (:

Hanged around at long john silver, tried to teach them how to make roses while I made a few! Failed teaching them! CMI. Went on to make rings instead. lol.

OK Eden has a flair in making rings!!! Woot. Guess the theme of his rings would be "Garden of Eden"! Roses and vines.

Alright. I dunno how to describe what's going in my mind now. Feels all fuzzy. I think I need sleep. ZzzZzz.

&the beauty.

10:55:00 PM

If I thought the 2 hrs+ over SMU Biz interview was long, I'm so wrong. The scholarship 'interview' lasted a whole day... 10am - 7pm! But it wasn't any 'interview'. It feels like orientation to me. We were grouped in 8's and 9's together with 2 facilitators; got into this small study room where we sat on the floor since there weren't enough chairs for us all. Makes everything seem less formal. Round of introduction. Suppose to take something out of ur wallet that speaks of something about yourself. And I took out my new GV popcorn card cuz I love watching movies lately! Caught loads this year man. Fun. Fun.

And we got down on doing a business proposal - How to increase sales revenue of handmade notebooks for this organization Society of the Physically Disabled. And to prepare for a presentation at the end of 3 hrs. Was expecting a twist, and indeed there was. Half hr before time's up we had to do up an advertisement on a whiteboard marker and AAA batteries. Totally unrelated, totally random, totally up to your imagination. The group splitted since there really wasn't enough time at all. Me and two others did this impromptu advertisement, which was completely lame and made no sense at all but yea at least it was a little laugh! We didn't even have time to rehearse for our presentation. Entered the lecture room, sat through 3 other group's presentation + QnA before it was our turn. Not bad! Went back to room and slacked for 1hr + before they called us to the board room. Asked those difficult questions like who should be booted, why you deserve the scholarship blah. Gah, hate those.

Great thing is the people in my group were really friendly people! One of them was a SPY! He's already a scholar, just wanted to see how we are really like without the eyes of our facilitators. Really really surprised when he revealed his true identity. Didn't suspect at all.

Few of us went for dinner at The Cathay after that. They were all people from different walks of life and that day was quite an eye-opener. Makes me feel all the more excited about university's life!! Then again, thinking of tutorials, lectures............. Mixed feelings about that. Ah well, still long!

Just wanna enjoy all that I can now =)

&the beauty.

11:16:00 PM

Ups & downs this week. Over-turning included. Pretty much the likes of a roller coaster ride. Morbid dread, demise, let-downs, disappointments, pleasures, realisations, elation, celebrations that weren't really celebrations, losing a friend. Overwhelmed. :O

Anyhow, I've got accepted into SMU and NTU's double degree programme. Most probably heading to SMU, dunno what I'm hesitating though lol. & will be having SMU's scholarship interview on Tuesday. Nervousness not here yet.

Watched "17 Again". It was a pretty good laugh. And I like how it has a meaningful hint to it.
Can I have my 2nd take on life too?

People walk in and outta your life.
A few came into my life, caused a hellstorm, and walked out like nothing happened.
A bunch came in, and together we had great loads of fun. But they, too, left.
One came in, touched me, was a terrific confidente. Went away too.
Whatever the reasons, they have left prints in my life; heart - some indelible, some fading, some wounds. Some taught lessons, some brought me laughters, some shared sorrows.
Somehow, I wish things would be different. That life could be less complicated. That some of them haven't left. That I shouldn't been like I was.
Sorry to you. =(

But there's no second take on life. Life is no 'fanciful' movie.
I'm only left with memories, guilt a little, thoughts aplenty.

It's time to ponder, and reflect, with all seriousness, the way to manage life.
Having proper time management, juggling time between the people that mean alot to me;
treating them with all the sincerity one could muster; loving them.
It's not the quantity, but the quality of time spent that matters.
I have been neglecting my family; I'll definitely set things right.
I kinda disappointed my closer friends, and I was burning with guilt earlier on. But I'm glad all's fine now. I'm really sorry.
Frustrated with myself at times for not being able to handle the simplest of things. It shouldn't have been lost. It shouldn't. So darn sorry.

I'm finally, entirely, certain of how I'm feeling. It seems too certain to be true. Dream-like.
Never felt this way. Never felt so right.
But to trudge on grounds I was so wary of once again.... Guess I'm not ready.
I know I will be, though.

And to my dear friend, Michelle, stay strong as ever. Love you!

&the beauty.

10:23:00 PM

Feeling all vexed.

Quoted from the movie Defiance: "Freedom begins with an act of defiance!"

But nah, can't do. Family ties at stake.

Still, I just wish my mom would cut me some slack.

Sigh.

On a brighter note, dinnered & movied with enchou, nigel & kat yesterday since enchou's entering NS tomorrow.

Wanted to dinner at the new Tamp One but Kat kept pouring endless cold water; no choice headed to TM; and then she went "I wanna go training". We ate at Yoshinoya without her.

Kept playing Tap Tap Revenge 2 on my Touch & Nigel the DJMax pro thrashed all my hi-scores, even for my favourite song Tap Tap Domination! Manage to beat him though, after trying loadsa times today at home.

Bus-ed down to eHub. Arcade for awhile. Caught the 9.50pm movie. I like Cathay!

Fast & Furious 4 was awesome! The first 15 mins was awfully thrilling. Love the action, love the drifting, love the adrenaline rushing. Love the movie!

Reached home at 12.30am. That explained my mom's over-reaction today. Sigh.

Back to vex-ing. And some other stuffs as well.

Overwhelmed with mixed emotions.

Been a long week. and TGIF! before the clock strikes 12! =)

&the beauty.

12:54:00 AM

Another week brisked by!! Time waits for no man.

Had loads of guilty meals this past two weeks. Got to GYM.

&the beauty.